Today is our day...

Happy April!

I don't know why I am up writing this blog at this hour of the morning. I am feeling the heat of the cost of a wedding. It really is about the small details that make everything come together. I've been stressing over the fact that I don't want a huge wedding, yet even the small things seem terribly priced. For now, I am focusing on looking at the big picture. First off, I want to make sure we book our wedding ceremony and reception so we can add the rest of the enchilada to the plate, lol!

Today, as hot as it was, I collapsed in my bed for a nap while everyone was still up before the sun was sinking in the hills. Ben came over and we just laid there, with my window open, the cool breeze of the day whisping in, and my cotton sheets felt cool and crisp. I told Ben over the phone that today is our day. This day is reserved for just us. We just relaxed and remained quiet for a while. It was incredibly refreshing. No talk of school, work, wedding planning...nada in those short, sweet moments. I think we really needed that. I also think that is a picture of how important it to breathe, quiet yourself, and soak in the day and where you are in life.

(Ben at the site of our future proposal spot years ago!)



On my laptop, researching wedding inspiration and save-the-date cards and wedding dresses that don't cost an arm and a leg, Ben pulled out my bible and showed me a verse with a smile on his face. Not to mention, I have been feeling so weak and out of place (spiritually...and physically, lately). Matthew 6:25-34. We read it out loud together. I think it is powerful when you read something out loud. I don't know, it just establishes and confirms it so strongly in your heart.That passage felt as refreshing as the cool, crisp breeze that whispered through my sheets and on my skin. No worries, no anxiety, no pressure, just peace. I felt calmed, pulled my laptop away, and rested again. There is no peace like the peace that He gives.

We can rest in that...we are each other's strength.

Note to Self:
Do not forget in the stress of the day...the only true meaning of your wedding day, is that you are pledging your heart and life to the person you love.